This is magic !

At 5:51 pm, 23rd February 2017, came the most magic moment in my life.

I brought a healthy, beautiful life to this world, I became a mother.

Everything happened so fast that I didn’t even have time to think. Around 10am on the 23rd February, I started feeling contraction, I thought it was nothing serious since my due day was a week later. I didn’t pay too much attention to it, I tried to go to the hop top, go to the massage chair, do some yoga, listened some soothing music to distract me. It didn’t work! The contraction became stronger and more frequent.

I called my husband around 2pm. telling him that I would not be able to go to the concert tonight since I was not feeling well. I tried to lay down on the sofa, the contraction came every 5 – 10 minutes. Now I think back, this was the difficult part of all. This is kind of the pain that tear you apart, and turn your stomach up side down. Yet it was beautiful, the loving waves that pushed the baby closer and closer to you.

The water broke around 4.30pm, until then, I noticed that I’m going to give birth. We rushed to the hospital, which is about 10 minutes drive. It was a beautiful day, sun was shining, very calm, no wind, I feel the warmth of the sun shining on my face, with the contraction, I know the time has came.

When we arrived the hospital, as soon as I walked out of the car, the rest of the water broke, I didn’t know quite what to do, but let the body do whatever it feels like. The midwife was a very young lady, probably my age or even younger. She checked me, it was opened 7cm, she said it had to open 10cm then the baby could come out.

fullsizeoutput_1558I immediately feel the rush, I pushed and it feels good. My husband was on my left, holding my hand, the midwife on the other side, I tried to hold her hand too. Because at that moment, you really need a strong hand to hold and you need to scream and breath. I remembered the yoga breath, I did couple of times and I screamed loud.

The baby came out after 3, 4 pushes, it was not difficult. I only felt a warm flow out of my body and immediately my husband put him on my belly, he started to cry and cry and cry. It was so beautiful. I hold him and thought “oh my god, that’s it”.

After only couple of minutes, I started to breastfeeding him.

I didn’t sleep at all the first night, I was overwhelmed with joy and grace. He was on my belly the whole night, he was so small and so beautiful.

Even today, after two weeks, I’m still digesting the fact that I’m a mother now. Things have changed for us. A family life it is, with a crying baby and everything.

Life is very good to us, we feel so lucky !

Welcome to this world, Birgir Lárusson.



39 weeks

I don’t know weather it’s my mind or it’s truly happening, when I waked up this morning, I could feel waves of “fake”contractions. I can feel the head of the baby has already down at the cervix.

It’s only 10 days until due day. Technically speaking, the baby could come any time now. It’s so exciting just to imagine there’ll be another person in our life, all the joys he will be bringing.

This time, four years ago, I was still sitting on the 90th floors of Jin Mao Tower in Shanghai, wondering which path I should take.

Life reserves us a lot of surprises. You just have to follow your heart and be patient.


36 weeks

My due day is exactly after a month.

This thought makes me both exciting and somehow anxious since my mum had a early birth which means it could happen to me anytime in February.

I was reading Ina Mary’s Guide to Childbirth. The stories they narrated when they give birth. Mostly talking about how the childbirth have transformed them into another stronger person, the part of selfishness slowly fading away. It must be magic !

     Through the process of natural childbirth, I gained a lot of confidence in myself. I left my comfort zone and the culture I had grown up with. I learned that I can work through scary and painful situations and be strong and present when I need to be. My fear of not knowing how to be a good mother has disappeared as my confidence in my intuition of how to love Grace has increased. I have felt incredible energy and life force through my body, and I have really been reborn a happier, healthier, and more confident person. I have learned I can choose to focus on the darker side or the lighter side of all that is around me. I choose the lighter side and have the discipline to keep it up.

The Joy of Delivering Grace – April 30, 2000

by Kathryn B. Van de Castle

Blind people society

Today we bought an old-fashioned baby bed in “Blindrafélagið“(Icelandic organization of the visually impaired).

My husband told me that they had been hand making baby bed for centuries. Both himself and all of his children slept in this bed.

Unlike the bed most people would buy in either IKEA or commercial store, I like to buy from handicap people. It’s a good course.

In Iceland, handicap people are being taken very good care of. All the public facilities are for them.

I hope our little contribution will help a little bit for the society.


35 weeks

I feel much more movement this week than last weeks. It’s a magic feeling, I can feel his feet stretching to my belly. In about a month time, I’ll be giving birth to another life, how wonderful is that !

Yesterday, I received two books my mum sent me from China. “Basic knowledge about taking care of the new-born” and “Baby daily”.

My mum kept a daily about my growth since I was born, from the first moment I came to this world until I was almost ten. So she decided for me that I should do the same thing, because it would be such a great gift to look back after 20 or even 30 years.




For my last month of pregnancy, I decided to take Fruitein every morning.

It’s protein energy shake packed with more than 30 kinds of fruits and green vegetables. Usually I’m not fond of protein shake like this, I believe they are made to build muscles and after work-out.

Yet my midwife said that it could be a good idea since I’m slightly under weight. It’s not that I’m worried that I’m not getting enough nutrition, but for a healthier baby.

Let’s make baby

One of my favorite Icelandic song writers and singers – Moses Hightower, published a song called “Búum til börn” (Let’s make baby) in 2010.

Það er enginn vafi, eitthvað vantar.
Ég held þú vitir hvað það er
því þú veist að við eigum ekki heima
úti í horni ein og sér.

Lofðu mér að liðka fyrir,
látum okkur líða vel.

Ég er ekki bara að hugsa um yðar einlægan,
það er ekki það sem vakir fyrir mér.

Búum til börn!

Sumir segja að eitt sé alltof mikið
en sjálfur fæ ég aldrei nóg.
Ég lofa að blessun eykst með barni hverju.
Berum ávöxt, verum frjó.

There is no doubt that something is missing.
I think you know what it is,
because you know we don’t belong
in a corner by ourselves.
I am not thinking about your sincere one,
that is not my intention.
Let’s make babies.
Some say that one is too much
but I never get enough myself.
I promise that each child is a blessing.
Let’s bear fruit, let’s be fertile.
I am not thinking about your sincere one,
that is not my intention.
Let’s make babies.