This is magic !

At 5:51 pm, 23rd February 2017, came the most magic moment in my life.

I brought a healthy, beautiful life to this world, I became a mother.

Everything happened so fast that I didn’t even have time to think. Around 10am on the 23rd February, I started feeling contraction, I thought it was nothing serious since my due day was a week later. I didn’t pay too much attention to it, I tried to go to the hop top, go to the massage chair, do some yoga, listened some soothing music to distract me. It didn’t work! The contraction became stronger and more frequent.

I called my husband around 2pm. telling him that I would not be able to go to the concert tonight since I was not feeling well. I tried to lay down on the sofa, the contraction came every 5 – 10 minutes. Now I think back, this was the difficult part of all. This is kind of the pain that tear you apart, and turn your stomach up side down. Yet it was beautiful, the loving waves that pushed the baby closer and closer to you.

The water broke around 4.30pm, until then, I noticed that I’m going to give birth. We rushed to the hospital, which is about 10 minutes drive. It was a beautiful day, sun was shining, very calm, no wind, I feel the warmth of the sun shining on my face, with the contraction, I know the time has came.

When we arrived the hospital, as soon as I walked out of the car, the rest of the water broke, I didn’t know quite what to do, but let the body do whatever it feels like. The midwife was a very young lady, probably my age or even younger. She checked me, it was opened 7cm, she said it had to open 10cm then the baby could come out.

fullsizeoutput_1558I immediately feel the rush, I pushed and it feels good. My husband was on my left, holding my hand, the midwife on the other side, I tried to hold her hand too. Because at that moment, you really need a strong hand to hold and you need to scream and breath. I remembered the yoga breath, I did couple of times and I screamed loud.

The baby came out after 3, 4 pushes, it was not difficult. I only felt a warm flow out of my body and immediately my husband put him on my belly, he started to cry and cry and cry. It was so beautiful. I hold him and thought “oh my god, that’s it”.

After only couple of minutes, I started to breastfeeding him.

I didn’t sleep at all the first night, I was overwhelmed with joy and grace. He was on my belly the whole night, he was so small and so beautiful.

Even today, after two weeks, I’m still digesting the fact that I’m a mother now. Things have changed for us. A family life it is, with a crying baby and everything.

Life is very good to us, we feel so lucky !

Welcome to this world, Birgir Lárusson.

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Wherever you go, there you are.

Today I want to recommend a book that inspires me a lot, it’s by Jan Chozen Bays “How to train a wild elephant“. It’s mostly talking about mindfulness.

Jan Chozen Bays, physician and Zen teacher, has developed a series of simple practices to help us cultivate mindfulness as we go about our ordinary, daily lives. Exercises include: taking three deep breaths before answering the phone, noticing and adjusting your posture throughout the day, eating mindfully, and leaving no trace of yourself after using the kitchen or bathroom. Each exercise is presented with tips on how to remind yourself and a short life lesson connected with it.

Mindfulness is considered the heart of Buddhist meditation. But its essence is universal and of deep practical benefit to everyone. Mind and body works in harmony. We are what we think we are. The power of mind is enormous. Not only it controls our mood also our feelings. Therefore, I believe it’s important that we focus on the moment, and train our mind to think positively.

 

Let’s make baby

One of my favorite Icelandic song writers and singers – Moses Hightower, published a song called “Búum til börn” (Let’s make baby) in 2010.

Það er enginn vafi, eitthvað vantar.
Ég held þú vitir hvað það er
því þú veist að við eigum ekki heima
úti í horni ein og sér.

Lofðu mér að liðka fyrir,
látum okkur líða vel.

Ég er ekki bara að hugsa um yðar einlægan,
það er ekki það sem vakir fyrir mér.

Búum til börn!

Sumir segja að eitt sé alltof mikið
en sjálfur fæ ég aldrei nóg.
Ég lofa að blessun eykst með barni hverju.
Berum ávöxt, verum frjó.

There is no doubt that something is missing.
I think you know what it is,
because you know we don’t belong
in a corner by ourselves.
I am not thinking about your sincere one,
that is not my intention.
Let’s make babies.
Some say that one is too much
but I never get enough myself.
I promise that each child is a blessing.
Let’s bear fruit, let’s be fertile.
I am not thinking about your sincere one,
that is not my intention.
Let’s make babies.

Hyponobabies – Joyful pregnancy

Today I would like to share some hypnosis when it comes to giving birth.

Weather or not you have heard about Hypnobirthing, it’s a truly both magical and ancient method of giving birth, naturally and pleasant.

It is important that pregnant woman knows these affirmations by heart, and you can repeat after them.

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Pregnancy is natural, normal, healthy and safe, for me and my baby. My baby is healthy and safe inside me now. I am completely cooperate with my body as I nurture my baby. All of my body functions remain normal, healthy. Healthy and normal for the stage of pregnancy that I am in now.

my body just know how to be in perfect health, and my body is now producing perfect health for me. I am intuitionally know what kind of food my body needs and so I eat a well-balanced nutritional diet. My body is nursing my healthy baby. I have complete confidence that my body is working perfectly. My pregnant body is healthy and holy. My baby is developing healthy and strong, growing my baby is empowering for me.

I enjoy eating healthy food everyday for my baby. I love my pregnant body and I accept it everyday, more and more, EVERYDAY. The changes in my body is beautiful, they show me that my baby is growing beautifully. My blood pressure is perfect everyday and night. All of my body functions remain normal, for the stage of pregnancy that I am in now. I am so intoned with my body, my mind and my baby, and I intuitionally know when my body needs something. My body tells me when it needs something, and whenever my body needs something, that when I give it, so that I can grow my baby in such a healthy way. Pregnancy is natural , normal, healthy and safe for me and my baby. My body is nursing my baby as I eat well, I enjoy eating well for myself and my baby.

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My changing body is radially beautiful. I accept all the changes that pregnancy brings to me. I am willing to give my unborn child everything, that he or she needs to grow.

I eat nursing food everyday for my baby. I enjoy my prenatal exercise. I enjoy preparing my baby’s birthing. I prepare for my baby’s birthing everyday, mentally, physically, emotionally. I prepare for my baby’s birthing by listening hypnobabies practise. I do my hypnobabies practise everyday faithfully. I know that when I do my hypnobabies practise, it prepares me and my baby for easy and comfortable birthing.

whatever everyday goes by, I feel more and more confidante about my pregnancy, more and more comfortable about my body, more and more ready for my baby’s wonderful birthing. I see my bubble of peace around me all times now, I keep my bubble of peace around me all times now, my bubble of peace become stronger and more powerful every time I use it, my bubble of peace allows me to become comfortable and relaxed, and it allows only positive child birthing messages into my mind as I prepare my baby’s wonderful birth, other peoples’ negative birthing only belong to them and I keep away from them all times by using my bubble of peace.

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It’s good for me to take care of myself, I get to have a voice. It is safe to verbalise my feelings and desires. I am strong of verbalising my feelings and desires. I am willing to allow others to give me what I want. I can say no and still be respected. I take full honorship of my pregnancy, all decisions for my pregnancy is mine to make. I feel comfortable of making my own decisions. I make educated and informed decisions for my pregnancy and my baby’s birth. I say no thank you easily and confidently when I feel uncomfortable about anything.

I deserve to be taken seriously and I feel good about that and I remain confidante at all times about my abilities to make my decision of my birthing time. My baby know how and when to be born and I will be patiente. My baby know how and when to be born and I will be patiente.

I am strong, confidente, assured and assertive. Babies are born on their birth days not what doctors decide. I faith my baby will be born at a perfect time for him or her, and I am lovingly patiente. I accepte that my birthing time will start at a perfect time for me,  accepte that my birthing time will start at a perfect time for my baby. I faith the process at my birthing time and I feel good about the natural process of my birthing time.

I accept myself completely here and now. I love accepte my baby completely. I accepte all my feelings as part of myself. I now feel inner peace and serenity, I am in complete control of my body, my mind and my emotions. I tell my feelings what to feel and they do and they feel very calm, at ease about pregnancy and child birth, very calm, confidante and at ease about pregnancy and child birth.

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Birth is a safe and wonderful experience for me and my baby. My baby will be born healthy and at a perfect time. My body is made to give both easily and comfortably. All of my body functions remain normal. My body function remain normal during my pregnancy. My body function remain normal during my easy birthing time. I believe in my ability to give birth easily. I believe in my ability to give birth in complete comfort. I will give birth easily, comfortable and without complications. I am confidante about my pregnancy and my baby’s birth. I completely trust in my ability to birth my baby.

During my wonderful birthing time, I will be completely relax and comfortable. During my easy birthing time, with every breath I exhale I relax more and more deeply. The stronger my pressure waves are become, the deeply relaxed. I breath my annexation where I need the most and it works beautifully for me every time. I deserve a comfortable, easy and uncomplicated pregnancy. I deserve a comfortable, easy and healthy pregnancy.

I have courage, faith and patience. I take ownership of my pregnancy and the birth of my baby. All decisions of my pregnancy and baby’s births are mine to make. I feel very comfortable of making my own decisions. I make educated and informed decisions, for my pregnancy and my baby’s birth. I make educated and informed decisions for my baby’s care. I say no easily and confidantly  when I feel uncomfortable about anything, so that I can protect myself and my baby. I am strong and confidante.

I deserve to be taken seriously and I feel good about that, and I remain confidante at all times in my ability to make my own decisions during my pregnancy and my birthing time and for my baby’s care.

I believe my baby’s birth will be quick and easy, and during my short easy birthing time, with every breath I exhale, I relax more and more deeply. Birth is a completely easy and natural experience and my body was designed perfectly for birthing. My body will give birth at its own perfect time.

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I accept whatever my birthing time brings me, during my warm, loving birthing time, my hynobaby hypnosis keep me completely relaxed. And during my easy birthing time, my hynobaby hypnosis keep me comfortable at all times, peace. It works perfectly for me every time. I believe in myself, will give birth in safety and peace.

My birthing waves are easy and comfortable, and during my easy birthing time, the stronger my pressure waves become, the more deeply I relax. I always remember to use my word, peace.

And when I use my word peace, instantly, annexation flows to exactly where I need the most and I relax and release even more deeply. And during my fast, easy birthing time, I always remember my lights switch, and I turn it off when I am in fully supported position and feel so comfortable and relaxed.

And I always remember if I want to walk, talk or move around. I put my light switch to my center and instantly the middle part of my body is filled with nastier and I am able to walk, talk and move around completely comfortably and confidently.

whenever my light switch is in the center, this is a new birth and a new baby until itself and as I prepare my baby’s birth, I am growing and changing. I am creating a totally positive and new birth experience.

I am able to make the best possible choices for a healthy, joyful birth. Through birth I find healing. I deserve an easy, fast and completely comfortable birthing. I  deserve an easy, fast and comfortable birthing. I trust my body to give birth smooth and efficiently. I am easy to give birth easily and naturally, with every breath I exhale from now on, I feel more and more relax about my birthing.

I am ready and prepared for my beautiful and peaceful birthing. I stay balanced during my birthing time, my job is simply to relax. And allow my baby birth to happen easily and naturally.  And I will, I will simply relax and allow my baby’s birth to happen easily and naturally.

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I see myself birthing beautifully, calmly and with confiance, and so relaxed. My body knows just how to give birth. I am comfortable about my body’s ability to give birth.

During my easy birthing time, my hypnobabies hypnosis keep me completely relax and comfortable. I look forward to giving birth. I am excited and happy about giving birth.

I am so confidante about my ability to give birth. I am relaxed and I feel peaceful about giving birth. The thought of birthing my baby makes me feel powerful. There are always love for my as I birth my baby.

I help my baby feel safe, so he or she can be born. My baby is in perfect position to give birth. I trust my body completely. I have faith, courage and patience. I complete cooperate with my body during comfortable and easy birthing time.

And from now on and during my easy birthing time, I focus on everything going right, everything going right during my easy birthing time, I control on the things that could go right durning my easy birthing time. Everything going right, going right during my easy birthing time.

 

 

 

A letter on my 30th birthday.

Confucius  said, when one is 30, he should be able to stand firm on his own feet. It doesn’t mean that you should have a family, being married, having children, but to have a self-confidence, to have a goal in life. And today I turned 30, you can say it’s special, otherwise it’s just a number, we like to put labels, marks on everything to have them meaning. Although I want to use this opportunity to express my gratitude.

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First of all, I want to thank my parents. They make how I am today, their genes, the education they gave me, the environement they created for me and most of all, they’re always respect and support my decisions. Secondly, the love of my life, my husband, Lárus. He always say that I came to Iceland to hear Sigur Rós but I have been hearing from him ever since. That’s true! Our encounter is like a fate that can not be explained. Every single day with him makes me smile and grow. He makes me a stronger woman. Thirdly, I want to thank my boss, Sveinn. He’s the rainbow in my life. I’m grateful and joyful everyday at work.

limetree_by_weynejin-d61krn6waterfall2_by_weynejin-d61kpgcBuddhism sees life as a tree. We are leaves on that tree. Every single person we meet, they make us grow and somehow change our path. You say goodbye to some people and another day you meet new ones. We shall let go the past and not bothering worry about the future since we never know what can happen. Live now, appreciate life and never judge. Therefore, I want to thank every single person that was and is in my life!

Celebrate life

I’m not a religious person, yet it interests me to understand religion. And I do think that it’s necessary and important to have faith.

“I believe that God has created each soul, that that soul belongs to God, and that each soul has to find God in its own lifetime and enter into his life. That is what is important. All of us need to seek God and find him.”
– Mother Teresa

It doesn’t matter who is the God. Religion is a worship to God, therefore it is a matter of conscience. Each one of us must decide who we are going to worship.

Many people that I know they are religious because of their families. They are born in that environment, therefore it is natural for them to be involved.

Mother Teresa also said the meaning of life is to love and to be loved, and it should be celebrated with great joy. Learn to be humble and forgive. The power of giving. Be faithful in little things. Smile to everyone. Pray and love and live everyday as it were the last day of our lives.

Words written at the end of 2015

For no reason, I waked up at 2:30 am and couldn’t fall asleep again.

Many things come through my mind…

2015 has been a turning point for me. Two big trips, first to Thailand then the Cruise. Not only I experienced the parachute, taking picture with a tiger, but also a party in Miami beach. But most of all, I had a job, a job that I used to dream about, waking up in the kitchen, cutting onions, making crème brûlée, baking bread, etc. And what the dream comes true tastes like? Sweet-bitter.

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I’m a very lucky person. In a way, I go by instinct. I don’t usually judge people. I believe that everyone is unique, has his struggles that no one knows. I respect other people’s opinions. I’m a good listener.

Yes, that’s what I’m good at – listening. On other hand, I wish I could be more enthusiastic, more optimistic. I want to be a goes.

Working in the kitchen teaches me how to be quick, be flexible, be determined and believe in myself. It’s both physical and mental demanding. But because it’s my passions, because I’m working with the people I like, I feel good and I always see my boss as my life safer in a way. He can certainly be a drama queen, but he’s reasonable and a man has the head in the cloud but feet in the earth.

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Therefore I want to make some resolutions for 2016.

  1. keep being myself, never change.
  2. do what makes me happy, because only when you’re happy, can you make people around you happy.
  3. appreciate this wonderful life, express love more often.
  4. speak more Icelandic.
  5. read and listen French daily.
  6. have long hair for the summer.
  7. build a green house, having plants and take good care of them.
  8. start jogging.
  9. meditate 5 minutes per day.
  10. keep in touch with old friends.