In the pursure of Buddha way

With food we can share and communicate our emotions. It’s that mindset of sharing that is really what you’re eating. There is no difference between cooking and pursuing Buddha’s way. It’s been almost half a century since I entered this way. I did it in pursuit of enlightenment. I am not a chef. I am a monk.

– Jeong Kwan

Creativity and ego can not go together. If you free yourself from the comparing and jealous mind, your creativity opens up endlessly. Just as water springs from a mountain,  creativity springs from every moment. 

You must not be your own obstacle. You must not be owned by the environment you are in. You must own the environment, the phenomenal world around you. You must be able to freely move in and out of your mind. This is being free.
At least, this is my belief. 

Buddha way is “live the moment” way, it’s about treat the ingredients with care and respect, being humble and forget about yourself.


That’s what help me recovering from BED.

It’s been a while I like to write this post. But I was not confident yet, but now, I can stand high and say: goodbye BED!

About a year ago, I was still frequenting “The White Bandage”, an association which helps people who suffer with eating disorder. 

My eating disorder started from 10 years ago when I was in university , I was trying to lose weight and got obesessed. I avoid going home during the weekend then I could be alone at school and don’t have to eat. I got too skinny until my period stopped for over a year. My mum got worried and took me to the doctor. Slowly by slowly, under the help of medicine, I went to the normal weight.

During my five year in Paris, I was healthy and not a second I thought about my weight, I was happy then.

It didn’t last until I moved to Iceland in 2014. The isolation and lonliness somehow awakened the devil inside me. I become obsessed about food, about the weight again. It’s not until I dropped to only 35 kg that I was alerted. I looked myself into the mirror and the only thing I saw was a skinny child, not a charming woman at all. 

The worst thing about BED is the self-deficient after each binge. I will feel completely a loser and idiot. Why did I do this to myself? It’s the last time i swear. I’m not going to eat anything for the next day. I have to stop this !

I am lucky.

I have a husband with whom we talk about everything. We trust each other completely. There’s no secret or taboo between us. So he noticed my eating disorder. I start going to “The White Bandage”. She’s a lady of my mum’s age, with very gentle voice and tender eyes. When she looks at you, it’s full of compassion and love. She’s an art therapist . With each section , I draw a picture, whatever was on my mind.

After stop seeing her (since my weight went back to normal and so does my period), I still had couple of times “crime”. But I didn’t feel guilty anymore. 

Today, I’m pregnant which was the least thing I expect of myself. It’s a truly gift. I see it as a transform. I know this devil root will always be there, but I’m not afraid anymore because I choose not to. I choose to be healthy, joyful and graceful.

So that’s what I do if I feel a sign of craving:

  1. I listen to some soft music or music that emotional attached
  2. I go for a walk
  3. I avoid eating alone
  4. I avoid being too hungry
  5. I make myself a cup of warm chai tea with milk and sugar
  6. Call a friend or my mum

This is my story. I do hope it could help those who’re suffering from eating disorder. 

新年快乐!Happy Chinese New !
















For my last month of pregnancy, I decided to take Fruitein every morning.

It’s protein energy shake packed with more than 30 kinds of fruits and green vegetables. Usually I’m not fond of protein shake like this, I believe they are made to build muscles and after work-out.

Yet my midwife said that it could be a good idea since I’m slightly under weight. It’s not that I’m worried that I’m not getting enough nutrition, but for a healthier baby.

Hidden gem in Reykjavík

Yesterday we tried a new Mexico restaurant in Reykjavík.

It’s located in the mid-centre.

The moment you walk into the restaurant, the warming, south-American waves hit you. Colourful carpet, Mexico music, pink purple lights, everything is just so bling bling and get your attention.

We tried the menu “Unexpected latino voyage” and that of “vegan voyage”. Both are six course, sharing menu.

For the latino, we had tuna carpaccio, beef tartar taco, chicken taco, cod fish, duck breast and beef. For the vegan version, we had grilled broccoli, home-made pickled vegetables, tofu taco, grilled celery root and almond milk ice-cream.


Sophisticated Chinese New Year sweet treat

We all know that France is famous for their sweets, but do you know that in China we also have very sophisticated dessert, specially when it comes to the Chinese new year.


Chai Pao (soaked in tea)

They are more of a art than a food. They are made of a special Chinese winter melon, carefully craved then cooked in a sugar syrup for a long time. And then slowly dry with the wind.

To enjoy, make a cup of green tea, and drop in one piece of sweet melon.


Zao tang (candy for the Kitchen God)

A sweet original from Northern China.

It is a kind of candy made of maltose that people in China use as a sacrifice to the kitchen god around the twenty third day of the twelfth lunar month just before Chinese New Year. Guandong tang refers to stick shaped candy with a thickness of 2 cm and a hollow in the center. Tanggua is made into melon shape and sometimes with sesame on the surface.

The restaurent which deserves one michelin star.

We’ve been dining all over Iceland, yet this one is definitely one of the finest.

It’s located in one of the most popular tourist places – Blue Lagoon.

After dipping yourself into the geothermal bath after a long hour, a bubbling wine and a light meal is what you deserve.

The decoration in LAVA Restaurant is a mixture of modern and mixture, with lava cliff and big windows to the lagoon / swimming area.

They used to serve the best sushi in the country during lunch time, and now they are selling them in the Café area.


I had a non-alcoholic cocktail drink , which is a blender of smashed strawberries and basils, refreshing and very lady-like.


Starter: Porched artic char with picked cucumber, picked pearl onion.

The fish is cooked into perfection, melt right into your mouth.


Main: Grilled cleric root with spiced chickpeas and dill oil.


For dessert we chose a cheese plate, they’re all Icelandic cheese.

Clockwise from top to bottom are : white moulded cheese (4 weeks), Gull (another white moulded cheese, a bit stronger than the former one), Yellow cheese (12 month), Blue cheese and the most interesting one “ljótur”(which means ugly in English), it’s a cheese between white moulded and blue cheese.

It’s the first time I tried to pair blue cheese with chocolate, and it’s not bad at all.

So if you’re travelling to Iceland, please stop by Lava Restaurant, I’m sure you’ll not be regretted.